When did I do that Man Fighting A Snake? I think it was 2007 or so. I went through a little period there, the novelty of Cubism I suppose, Cubish at least. That period never went away, still like to get brainy sometimes, it just got buried under everything else. Mostly making stupid Youtube videos.
Gave myself a good critique here recently with all my videos. There was just too much, too much babble, too much trying to cram it all in. The comedy was supposed to be there, really, the main motivation for it all-art comedy. I'm afraid though that may have been my most ambiguous failure. Even the Cubist Goat situation of 2009 was taken way, way out of proportion and interpreted by many as some ego trip. Wrong. My art (a goat painting) being copied, potentially printed on handbags or pillowcases or some crap like that by some shit-for- brains-marketeer without my knowledge and me finding out and getting pissed about it is not an "ego trip". I was a victim of fraud. I painted the Cubist Goat to see if the sumbitch could copy that. Like Michael Vick Rides Barbaro (Google that one), the Cubist Goat painting was created in a total state of being really pissed-off. Ego and being pissed-off are two vastly different things in my book. There is no room for ego in a fit of rage. Art was my therapy here, my baseball bat to that dickheads scull.
Again though, this post is just another in my "reposting of what I should have never taken down in the first place posts". Once I'm done with this, I can just try and make it from week to week. I am missing my Cubish Cat Fight painting, so if anyone I know has that one, please send me an image of it so I can post it here. It was a good one. This nude as well-a mighty fine little painting I liked a whole lot. A larger version is going at the moment, a much larger version-nude brunette, Rattlesnake Cobra, a swirling mess of lines and shapes. Not sure if I can finish it though. This approach for me turns my mind too much, my Zen gets whacked, I ask myself too often-is the novelty of it worth it. Thinking like that though, the idea of novelty, no matter what you create is a death nail, so best just keep on not thinking and just "being the ball". The one thing I do know-I don't know really what Ego means. To me it means Asshole plain and simple. If it does exist, it never enters my studio, maybe my cooking, I can be a real ass in the kitchen. The studio, that arena, is at its best when I and everything about me is vacant from it.